sacred sundays
"god" is good – reflections on a modern relationship with spirituality
Excited to be sharing another newsletter entry with you all. In the past, I’ve struggled with perfectionism and it’s paralyzed me from sending these out. With the extra help and support of my therapist, together we made it a mission for me to get out of my own way and send this out today. FYI - This is entry pretty free flowing and I don’t really have a format at the moment other than wanting to share from my heart. So read and share your thoughts with me, okay bye :)
Over the past few months, I have chosen to devote my Sundays to myself and God. Yes, G.O.D. So listen… I never grew up going to church, all my parents told me to do was “pray” and I’ve always done that but I don’t think I have ever had an actual relationship with God until now.
My perspective of God is not this man in the sky. God is within me… God is my consciousness. God is the healing instrument that tunes my thoughts, beliefs, and perceptions. So call it God, universe, or source, the “label’ itself doesn’t matter that much in my opinion.
Now that I am walking with God, my awareness overall has expanded and I feel so much more in tune with my soul’s calling and not the calling that this world has “premanufactured” for me. You see, I’ve come to find this electrifying connection between spirituality and metaphysics (more of that later) and it has shifted my entire life profoundly.
I’m not moved by the drama and the madness in the world because I know that within myself I can always achieve an eternal state of peace. And you can’t find that outside of yourself. Maybe you can find it for a moment, but it will always be a peace that comes with “conditions”.
On Sundays, I get up, stretch, cook breakfast, watch a sermon virtually via the Agape International Spiritual Center, and then listen to this gospel playlist that I made. Spending time with God every Sunday and every day, to be honest, has entirely impacted the way that I perceive and interact with the world. I now view myself as “one with God” therefore I am already good enough and designed in my own perfect way. There’s no longer a need for me to compare or shame or guilt or beat myself up in the way that my “mind” has done relentlessly for years.
I can now confidently say that I am choosing to live more in my heart than in my mind… which is a learning curve… but I say all this to say that I feel myself changing. And honestly, I don’t think it’s really a “change”, I believe that I am just finally seeing myself clearer and there is honestly no better feeling than that. The almighty gift of clarity will set you free. Pray for it.
THREE SIMPLE TRUTHS I CURRENTLY EMBODY:
I am already whole.
I do not rely on external conditions to determine my happiness.
I speak positively about my future self instead of dwelling over the past version of myself.
WRITINGS & JOURNAL ENTRIES:
BOOKS I’M READING NOW
I read both of these devotionals daily:
Journey To The Heart - Melody Beattie
‘Daily meditations on the path to freeing your soul’ and all that good stuff. This one gives me a modern understanding and practical implications of how to walk with God in my daily life.
Mirror of Intimacy - Daily Reflections on Emotional and Erotic Intelligence - Alexandra Katehakis & Tom Bliss
Are you a recovering undercover over-lover girl like myself? Read this one to get a deeper understanding of your relationship patterns and thought processes around intimacy and sex. Thank me later.
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A QUESTION FOR YOU ALL
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ONE LAST THING
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With gratitude,
Taylor 🦋
thank you Taylor🤍
beautiful, Taylor!